A Candid Confession: Why I’m Rethinking My Path as a Math Teacher

Hello dear readers,

Today, I’m writing something a bit different. For the first time, I want to talk about myself. I know it’s an unusual start, but I feel a desperate need to share what’s been going on lately. There’s so much on my mind, and honestly, I just need to let it out.

First of all, I am a mathematics teacher. However, I haven’t been officially appointed to a public school yet. Currently, I’m working part-time at a private tutoring center (dershane), and to be frank, I’m beyond exhausted. The salary is disheartening, the working conditions are poor, and I have no professional respect for my boss. I want to resign—ideally tomorrow—but something is holding me back. It’s hard to explain, but there are these psychological barriers I’m struggling to overcome. I hope to find the courage to walk away very soon.

You might wonder why I chose this path in the first place. Well, I became a math teacher because my sister convinced me it would be an "easy and stable" career with quick appointments. My real dream was always to be an engineer or a scientist—which, by the way, is what I’m striving for right now. But guess what? It wasn’t easy at all. In fact, with the sudden cut in teacher quotas, being appointed has moved beyond hard work; it’s now a matter of pure luck.

The reality of being a teacher in this country often feels like being treated as modern-day labor. Let me give you a glimpse of my daily life: You would expect any office to have a lunch break or a basic kitchen, right? Not where I work. We work from 9 AM to 7 PM without a proper lunch break and without a kitchen to even make a cup of coffee.

But what hurts the most isn't just the physical conditions. It’s the people. Some people I considered "close" to me seem perfectly fine with me working in conditions they would never deem acceptable for their own children. It’s not a joke; it’s a painful reality.

I know this post is a bit melancholic, but I needed to clear my chest. I’ve left some things unsaid for now, but I hope to update this post very soon with the news that I’ve finally resigned.

Thank you for reading and for being part of my journey.

UPDATE: The Sweet Taste of Saying "I Quit!"

Yes, I finally did it! I’ve officially informed my boss of my resignation. I can’t even begin to describe the incredible sense of relief and happiness I’m feeling right now.

Of course, the process isn't instant; I’ll be finishing up over the next two weeks. But knowing that very soon I will no longer be forced to work in that environment is a wonderful feeling. I know I’ll be even happier the moment I walk out that door for the last time.

My heart goes out to anyone stuck in a similar situation. I truly hope that whatever it is you’re dreaming of, you find the strength to reach it as soon as possible. Better days are coming! 😊